When I was young I dated and was engaged to someone (5 years) but we were young and damaged our relationship and weren't really happy as we didn't grow together. While I truly loved him I called it off and ignored his plea to mend things. Part of me just wanted him to grow up and prove he wanted me but it didn't work that way. We spent the next 2+ years toying with each other before we laid down the law and had no contact. We both moved on and eventually maintained minimal friendly contact from time to time.

I am happily married now and so is he, but I heard this week that his mother died and while I didn't care for her for reasons better left unsaid I can't get my ex off my brain. I feel terrible that he's hurting and I'm slightly emotional about our past.

I am so deeply loved and in love with my husband and I know there is no other place I'm meant to be.... But these weird past emotions are driving me crazy.