In the hospital now trying to take in all the negative news I’m getting.....after two years of trying and 2 previous miscarriages I thought if I was positive in my mindset this pregnancy would stick .....well it’s not looking good! Amongst bleeding, back pain, and my hcg level climbing and now declining .....it’s almost safe to say I’ve lost the baby.....just waiting on ultrasound results on a definite answer....but I’m honestly not to confident about anything good coming out of this .....I’m so emotional .....I really truly wanted this 😞 I guess my 2020 baby was just a dream 🤷🏽‍♀️