We were together off and on for 3 years, I’ve been absolutely crazy about him since day one, not sure why because He’s always chatted with other females here and there and towards the end he was physically cheating on me. So, the night before finding out I was pregnant, keep in mind we had been fighting a lot lately, we were out at a bar, where I am from, so it is usually only locals who go. We were both having fun with our friends and drinking, well one of his ex girlfriends show up and a group of her friends. (I figured he must’ve invited her because why would they go out of their way to drive this far to go to a hole in the wall bar?) needless to say things got physical between the group of girls and I. My boyfriend ended up leaving with his ex that night.

The next afternoon I knew we were over for good, and I had always been a week or 2 late for my periods, but I told myself to take a pregnancy test just Incase now instead of waiting any longer, because like an idiot (me being the idiot) we had been trying for 2 years to get pregnant and I have prayed and prayed.

I took a cheapie test on a Sunday afternoon and saw a faint line, I immediately started shaking and crying as I watched the line get darker. Went to the store and bought a couple of more line tests and one yes or no test. They all came back positive.

At this point I’m confused. He ends up calling me to come over to talk and I’m like well, I have to tell him so I tell him that he can come to my house but I am still very angry. He sat on my sofa, I dropped all of the pregnancy tests in his lap and I left and went to my friends.

I made an appt the very next day to confirm the pregnancy and it was confirmed. I decided to try and make it work with him. 3 days after finding out that we were having a baby he left in the middle of the night to go sleep with that ex. I stopped going home, he moved out on day 5 after finding out and we have been separated since.

He has been coming to appointments and we do still talk because I have been hopeful but he is still fucking with my head he’s not ready to be committed to one person, I can tell. I want to get over him and I want to move on before Our baby is born. How do I? I’m torn, I’m tired of sleeping alone every night, I’m just so hurt. Any advice ladies?

I haven’t gotten excited about the pregnancy I prayed for yet, I don’t even have names picked out but will probaly find out the gender next week.im just ready to enjoy the time I have left of being pregnant and get my mind focused on something else for the next few months.

Due date : 12/29