Pregnancy dreams are fucking horrifying

So here is mine that I had today, if you remember one feel free to put it in the comments but these things play on all fears and it’s absolutely scary. I wrote this as soon as I woke up, it’s not in detail as stories usually are I write poetry so I know how to fix it up but this is the gist of it.

Some names are changed bc you wouldn’t get the dynamic anyways lol

Forget me not

An old man comes to the door and ask for something I say we don’t have it, he asks why and I responded kind of rudely saying this isn’t my place so I wouldn’t know where it is to begin with and he tells me I’ll regret my decision and good luck with the next six months of my life, a few days go by and I’m good, next thing I know I wake up in My guardians bed with a baby and her doing work.

Scooters there helping me take care of the baby she looks pretty big, I asked if we had a middle name and she said no, it was a beautiful babygirl, I changed her and fed her she went right to sleep, but I realized that I’d never started breastfeeding, I couldn’t understand why bc that was my main goal. I really couldn’t figure out why I was at my guardians either

We go to the store and I’m looking around I’ve never seen half the products in the store and I’m really curious I ask for something and I’m told we already have it and I’m like....

I ask her why we are here like at her house, so she takes me over to the hostens. We have gifts and everything

Mom ( I call my friends mom mom) opens the door but she never looks at me and she doesn’t let me in she takes the gifts and says thank you, to my guardian , and tells us to leave

I start to cry and beg to speak with them bc at this point I’m horribly confused. They finally let me in, and my friend is ignoring me, Rey even dad, I keep asking what I did what happened

Mom tells me that I was acting an actual mess, yelling and cussing

Fighting

Being all types of disrespectful and insane

The way I was doing things was just difficult and bad, and they couldn’t handle it anymore

They sent me away

I kept saying I didn’t do that that’s crazy, idk how I did that, I can’t remember anything

Then I ask how old my baby is,

They answer 2 months

I started crying even harder asking her birthday and when did I give birth and they just kept looking at me crazy they asked how I didn’t remember my own daughters birthday, I just begged them to tell me.

She was a Scorpio, November 8 is when I had her

And I can’t even remember pushing her out, I don’t remember being in a hospital

I don’t remember the pain and the happiness

I don’t remember the distress I caused on the family nothing I’m just there absolutely confused

Still crying I try to explain I don’t remember anything except when I was living with them that’s it

They wouldn’t believe me kept saying I was crazy started rushing me to the door bc they thought I was lying to come back to them

My final words were today was the first day I woke up

And that same old man was in the yard again. Same black face and grey beard same fishing bucket hat, same old used hands, same trench coat, same needle in his hand, and as I’m standing their in the doorway he asks

how was your past six months.

When he first asked that I was 5 3/4 pregnant didn’t know the gender, living with a family that took me in after my life when to hell. Absolutely hating my guardian. 19

Today I was in distraught living with my guardian, a 2 month old baby, and I was 20

He said can you remember it

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So yea this was my dream it played off of me being too disrespectful or Unwanted that I get kicked out of my already temp place to live and loose my one friend, having a baby, and not actually knowing her or loving her, and then having to deal with my guardian again and living with her bc I can’t live on my own anymore and being dependable on the one person wanting to control my life. Crazy shit woke up in a whole panic attack.