I'm tired of being ready to get married and he's not. I want to be with him for the rest of my life. Its not just a piece of paper to me. We have been together for 4 1/2 years and we have 2 kids. Given, financially, we aren't in a good place. He said we will get married he just isn't ready to yet. He says he knows he wants to be with me but he just isn't where he wants to be.... I'm just debating now how much longer I'm willing to wait because damnit I'm a catch and I'm fucking worth it even if he doesn't see that. Deep inside I know he is scared because more than half his family is divorced. On one side I get where he is coming from but on the other side its like get the fuck over it. They say life happens when you are busy making plans. Kids came first, our fault, of course. However, I wanted marriage, the picket white fence, then the kids. But I guess God wanted to have a laugh at me and make my life a shit show.