Hello, I’ve never posted something on <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> before, but I feel the need to vent about my fiance. He has always been weird in our relationship I feel like, but choking me was something that was only used for spicing up sex, not to actually kill me. I need some advice from ladies who are willing to listen.

So my fiancé has hit me a few times because he’s christian and if we got tempted to have sex he always got really mad if we fornicated (had sex before marriage). I always cry and he has held me afterwards a few of the times, but a recent sleepover has concerned me.

He lives with his parents and they went on vacation. He mentioned the idea of me coming over and i said sure because I was feeling lonely and being alone with him would make me feel better I thought.

He picked me up and the ride there was pretty quiet. He led me to his room and went to go talk to his friends on his computer. I decided to just sleep and wait for him to join me, and he ended up coming in the room to tease me for a few minutes (which i was trying to push him off knowing his angry tendencies)

He then left again for about an hour. When he came back it was all about sex. He didn’t talk to me much, he just rudely woke me up trying to get me to give him oral. By this point it seemed like he was forcing himself onto me, so I just let it happen because I didnt want it to escalate to anything serious. [He was wiping my eyes every once in a while to see if I was crying which was odd.] He ended up just doing what he wanted to me, and afterwards we rolled over and I thought it was bedtime.

.............at least thats what I thought.

After the sex, he got mad again. He aggressively grabbed my neck and plugged my nose trying to stop me from breathing. In my head im thinking its HIS FAULT and he shouldn’t be choking me, but he’s a lot stronger than me and I didnt know what to do. I just pulled his hand with my arm to get some air at a time and then he put both hands on my face. At this point i started crying because I felt unsafe and he let go and rolled over. He didn’t apologize, he didn’t see if I was okay, he just left me on one side of the bed to cry

He also said “you should sleep on the floor”.

He ended up taking me home at 5am.

We are supposed to get married in February, but I’m not sure I’d wanna reproduce with this man and have my kids say “daddy, why are you choking mommy?” Idk what the bible says about this nonsense but as far as I’m concerned he picks and chooses scripture to follow.

Do I leave and not involve the police, or do I do both?

Thank you all for your time