sammi -

are you still there? I found you back in November when it was just me, myself and I. But I feel like I've faded to just I. If that.

Your physical being is here still - obviously, I see it in the mirror every morning and night. But when I look into those delicate brown eyes, dressed with lashes, I feel like nothing looks back.

I can't hear you anymore. Sometimes I can hear a faint whisper of what once was, but most of my brain is occupied by various voices frantically laying out all of their insecurities. Other voices shout their expectations of me. All of them do their best to keep us from each other.

I think there's a reason for that. Remember when we last were one? I glowed - we glowed. Our smile was genuine, our tongue was sharp and everyone admired us even though we weren't looking for their praise. Together, we're completely unstoppable if we can find one another.

Your dear body misses you. Its weight gets harder to manipulate with each passing day as it yearns for your ambitious drive again. I hope I can find you again. I hope you can find me.

I miss you so, so much.