Looking for some advice since I am really conflicted!

My husband and I have been married for 2 years now. When we got engaged I was 6 weeks pregnant and sadly we lost that baby at 12 weeks. We were not ready for a baby at that time, but I was excited because I have always wanted to be a mom.

Over the past 2 years we have discussed when we would try and it was always “when we have _____ money” “when we buy a house” “when I get a better job” from my husband.

The other day he ambushed me by saying he doesn’t know if he will ever be ready... 😳

He said he keeps giving different reasons to extend and push it further and further in hopes that he will eventually change his mind. He says he wants to want it, but just doesn’t.

He then was saying he thinks that maybe when we are 28-29 he would be comfortable with it. (We are 24 now)

I feel so dragged along and played because he has pretended for all this time and now I can’t decide if I can trust him about waiting another 4 years or if that is just another ploy. I refuse to not have children. It is an absolute need.

I’m struggling with whether or not this is repairable, and if I am willing to wait and risk it still not happening. Or if this is the end and we both just don’t want to let it go. Something you just can’t compromise on....

Does anyone have any advice on this? I am so conflicted