Depression/drained😭

I feel like crying, I have so much anger built up. I’m 35 weeks pregnant, ill be getting my c section August 15th. I don’t know what the hell got into to me but my depression just hit the crap out of me unexpectedly today. My depression comes and goes, I haven’t been my self this whole pregnancy ( not motivated, lazy, legit in bed) along with being high risk. But this hit me a whole different level. I just got so upset and angry and started crying. I don’t want to be pregnant anymore, (I want my baby) I just don’t want to be pregnant. I don’t want a damn c section but I won’t be able to have her natural. My husband barley helps sometimes or does half the job. He’s been making me more stressed, not caring if I’m going through stuff. I have an almost 2 year old and I love her to death but this is taking such a toll on me. I’m with her ever day, and yes my husband works. I work at home, making extra income for us. But even on the weekends he doesn’t help because he wants to relax and drink and all he does is play video games with his friends. I’m just sick of it because I want some help, especiallybeing high risk. I want him to stop saying I don’t help with money when I legit put gas in his car and pay for the diapers, milk, anything if I have the money. He gets mad because I can’t help with bills. He makes $1,000 while I make $30-40 a week about. Depending on my sales i get, and I will spend my money to buy the extra things we need. Trust me I’d love to give him the freaking world but I’m doing what I can and I’m going insane here because I feel so alone. I’m away from my family because he’s in the military and I moved with him last year. Which my family helped with my first and now I just feel alone this pregnancy and don’t feel like my husband will help especially when I’m getting a c section and have to deal with my toddler. I just needed to vent. PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT if you are going to say something negative, i really can not take anything else, because I’m at the point of being done.