Just tired

So pregnancy wasn’t great. Threw up, nosebleeds, GD etc the whole time. I get induced, worst pain ever, worse than actual labor. Baby has jaundice so in and out of hospital for a week. Hospital and clinic mess ups so time wasted waiting hours at hospital. breastfeeding hours yet baby doesn’t gain weight, so pressure to breastfeed and pressure that my baby isn’t fighting jaundice. Gave up started pumping and formula. Got postpartum hives for 2weeks. Husband is the most patient person I knew until baby was born. Clearly i decided no second babies. I felt the baby blues for a week. It’s going away but i just feel blah. I love my baby but I feel like there’s no connection yet and that makes me feel worse. Venting over. Does it get better?