I love being a mom. When I had to go back to work, I was absolutely devastated. I thought that it would get easier over time but it hasn’t. Ive spent the last year trying to figure out a way to be able to stay home with my daughter and keep coming up short.

The fact that I’m unable to stay home with her has taken me into a depression and I feel like a failure for it. I feel like my husband and I should have done things differently to allow us to afford a single income. I feel hostility toward my husband for not finishing college and for not reaching his full potential (and I know that’s not fair).

I see my sister in law who gets to be home with my nephew and I’m filled with jealousy. In fact, I’m jealous of all stay at home moms.

I know it’s normal to want to be home with your kids. But I’m almost certain that this amount of jealousy and depression is not normal.

My husband tries to remind me of how lucky we are to have jobs and to own our home... to have a healthy child and a daycare that she loves. I know all of these things are true but I just can’t get past it. I don’t know what to do.