I met my first ever guy friend at the end of my freshman year (I’m going into senior year) and sophomore year I started to gain feelings for him but I wasn’t planning on tell him or anyone.

Fast forward to then end of junior year.. He invited me to come over to his house after school so we can get high. It was going to just be me and him and tbh I didn’t think anything was really going to happen because I didn’t think he saw me like that. Soo I go to his house after school and we go back and fourth hitting his wax pen (I’m a light wait so I was pretty high). We were just chilling watching tv in his living room. He put his head on my shoulder (I didn’t think anything of it really, I thought he was just tired). Then he started touching my face and my neck and I turned my face and before I knew it we were making out!

It became the first time of many times of going over to his house and doing stuff. He would only text me whenever he wanted me to come over or whenever he wanted to come over to my house. I thought I was going to be okay with that but then I started to hear things about him wanted to get in relationships with other girls. I wasn’t surprised, i was just confused as to why he’s texting me (his so-called friend) when he could be flirting with other girls. I never wanted to ask him about that because I felt like it was never my right to be jealous about that.

Butttt what I did need to know was what he wanted to do with me. Did he wanna just fuck, kiss, hangout? I felt like I need to know because my feelings were growing. I ended up telling him how I felt about him and that I want to know what he trying to do with me and that I value our friendship way too much... he ended up leaving me on read! He didn’t answer my question and i basically confessed my “love” for him and he’s just going to ignore me. I thought he would be able to have a mature conversation about what we were doing. Did he wanna be friends with benefits, just friends, more than friends?... that’s all I wanted to know and he couldn’t even tell me that. I was so hurt and felt disrespected. I felt like I was his hoe the whole summer and that he never valued our friendship in the first place.

I don’t want to be his friend anymore and I don’t want to see him anytime soon. I’m really stubborn and I suck at letting grudges go. School starts in 2 weeks. should I let it go and pretend like nothing happened (like he will most likely do)... WHAT SHOULD I DOOO???!?