Is it possible to have PPD even though I don’t have my baby to show for it? I’ve been really struggling these last few weeks and dealing with a breakup from my ex who was emotionally and verbally abusive who spit on my face the day he packed up and moved out. Today after work I sat in a parking lot and cried because I just feel so overwhelmed with so much going on all at once & I just don’t know how to cope. My insurance ran out yesterday and I went to see a doctor yesterday before that happened and they basically just told me to get a therapist. I’m really struggling and think about suicide all the time because I feel like everything is just too much for me to handle. One day I’m sitting on a couch rubbing my belly and everything is normal and happy and one hour later my water breaks and I begin to miscarry at 17 weeks. I had a natural labor that took about two days to finish and had to deliver my dead baby. Every since that day my whole world came crashing down and I lost everything, literally. I just don’t know what to do because I don’t have the money to pay for a therapist out of pocket and even though I don’t think I’d do anything to hurt myself when I’m having a panic attack and crying I don’t even know what I’m capable of. I don’t trust my own body anymore and now I can’t even trust my mind. I’m just lost.