I usually don’t write these but I can’t go to anyone else to talk about this stuff with so I’m turning to the internet I suppose to vent.

My boyfriend and I have been dating for nearly 3 years, we live together, but the last year we had a major rough patch but we managed to get through it.

All this summer I was trying so hard, giving my 110% best I could to make this work between us. Literally I even impressed myself with how understanding, caring, adventurous, and loving I was, and I’ll admit that.

He has cheated on me in the past before, twice playing a drinking/dare game and once with this girl where he works. Somehow he persuaded me to give him another chance and I really felt like he loved and cared for me again so we moved on.

Two weeks ago he went back to his hometown. He didn’t text or call me once during the first week.

One week ago, I saw him getting with this other girl on his friends’ story. I didn’t say anything I just blocked him from everywhere and we have only had contact via email (saying that I’m moving out asap, which is Oct.) and that was literally it.

I don’t understand how he could do that

I don’t understand how he could not say anything to me

I don’t understand how he didn’t even ask why I blocked him and when I said we weren’t saying anymore

He never asked anything, he never said anything, he never tried to even fight for the relationship.

How could he not?? I didn’t do anything wrong to that extent, I was giving it all I could how could that still not be enough.

He is out there living his best life with his friends and other girls, how?? I know if I call him and tell him all this and cry in front of him he wouldn’t even care. How could that be possible after so long