Bestfriend or Relationship? Please help!

Alexandria

I recently had to end my relationship with my bestfriends brother because she was the only one uncomfortable ( my bestfriends are twins.) She told me I basically had to choose her or him. It’s a long story. I innocently flirted with one of her brothers in the past nothing ever serious. The brothers weren’t off limits. But the brother I never talked to ever came along and I actually seen a future. We hid us for a month. I felt bad so I confessed to them. The main twin denied us being together, then turned around a week later gave us support because she wanted to see me happy, then now she told me she cannot support us at all. My emotions are everywhere because of this. Imagine you like someone so much and your falling in love with them but if you continue that relationship you lose that friendship. It’s so hard. I miss him. It’s only been a day. I haven’t fully processed yet. The first time she denied us to be together I was heartbroken. I felt it in my chest. I felt so much joy after she gave us the support. I was so thankful. Now it’s back to the beginning. It’s unbelievable but under stable I guess. All I know is I’d never in a million years do this to her emotions if I was in her shoes. Everyone’s different. I almost believe in if it’s meant to be it will be. That’s me trying to make myself feel better. What do you guys think of this all?