my story.

well hey guys.. i am 15 years old & i deal with severe depression. i hate talking about it to friends i feel like a burden. ive told my parents countless times & still there taking little action to get me the help i need. im really suicidal i have about 2-3 deppressive episodes a day, & my triggers are things i simply cant do anything about. so honestly ive been thinking about giving up. only thing holding me back is the thought of how my family & friends would react. i cant give up on them.. but i want so desperately to not be here or in this mental state anymore. ive been molested in the past, verbally abused all that, and im sure that contributes to all if this. ive also used drugs to be happy which i hate. i hate everything about myself and me self esteem is gone. im trying so hard to get better on my own, but im not going to lie its very hard, and i need some tips.

note- if youre going through the same thing please just push through with me we can do this .