Today really sucks

So I don't really have any one I can talk to because I'm trying to be the strong person in my family right now and it is really really really hard to hold myself together 😭😭😭😭 so my mom hasn't been feeling well this past week and my dad took her to the hospital last night well they transported her to Duke which is a really really really good hospital. The absolute best she can be in because she has an abcess on her liver 😭😭😭😭 well needless to say she went from laughing and joking to being on a ventilator. Y'all my heart is breaking 😭😭😭😭 my dad man this is breaking him 😭😭😭 all I can think is please God let my momma be okay but my daddy I don't know if he will be okay if my momma leaves this world 😭😭😭😭😭😭 and I know theres nothing I can do to take that pain away from him and that absolutely kills me!! On top of all that the one person in the world I want to talk to is my best friend and we had a big falling out a few months ago and she doesn't want to talk to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm strong I know I can survive this I'm just so worried about my daddy I can't lose them both 😭 how do I breathe threw this???