This is me. I am tired. Tired of not feeling good enough. Tired of feeling used. Tired of loosing friends. Tired of lying. Just in general tired. Recently I haven’t been trying because i’m too scared or to exhausted. I met this boy when i was with my two girl friends we all went to a guys house with about 5 guys just hanging out for fun. We started playing truth or dare. Classic right? mhm true that. I got dared to kiss this one guy. His name was nathan. I was fine with it and i didn’t know him at the time but had heard of him. We kissed and the whole group was surprised. Then after me and the girls went back to their place me and this guy started talking and he said that if i was ready to date then that was more than okay with him. The group all hung out again and we were fine for the next 2 weeks or so. Then he started leaving me on opened and when we did snap back he would never talk to me even when i started a conversation with him. Keep in mind that he had said to the whole group and me that he wasn’t the type to hurt girls because i had admitted to him and the whole group that i had never had any luck dating and always got hurt and cheated on. He knew that i was afraid of getting hurt again but, what happened next hurt me. Before he started to ignore me we had talked about going to the fair together and riding rides and hanging out. I went to the fair one day and saw him there and smiled at him and he didn’t see me so i called him. He picked up and i said hey and i was like where are you i just saw you? He then answered with oh, i just left. Then i was upset and in the next two hours or so this girl hit me in the back of the head twice and i didn’t do anything. My whole family and my senior, junior and sophomore friends who are on my cheer team were there for me the whole time, while he was probably texting another girl and leaving me on opened with ought caring or knowing because he didn’t bother to snap back. Then a day later i’m scrolling through vsco and I see a picture of him and another girl together. I am getting over it but it still hurts me. I know that i am better off without him tho butttttt THAT SHIT HURTEDDD