Not sure how I feel anymore

I’ve been dating my boyfriend for almost two years now but we went on a break for about a month (still currently on it) The first couple of days were really hard and I didn’t really know what to do about it. I knew that we needed it and that it was a necessary thing to do but it’s hard to go from being able to talk to your best friend to absolutely nothing. I haven’t spoken to him in weeks now. Even if I were to reach out he wouldn’t answer because he has uninstalled the app we mainly use to communicate with anyone. Eventually I managed to get back on my feet for a bit but I’ve had some sad and happy days. Anyways, right now I’m just feeling really depressed and lonely. I don’t really know what I feel anymore, kinda numb and I don’t really know what to do about it. There r quite a few things just raiding my brain giving me anxiety and I can’t really focus on much. I talk to close people but I also don’t want to bother them every single time I get down. Any advice on what to do on how to just sort of get back up on my feet for a little while longer?? Thanks guys 🥺