My Husband and I gave our first baby back to God on Wednesday, July 31st at 5:10 PM.

If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.

This is not HOW we wanted to announce or WHAT we wanted to announce, but to keep this a secret would be an injustice to our beautiful baby and anybody else who has gone through, is going through, or will go through this. For 13 weeks we carried you and watched you grow. Our hearts were so full and the thought of becoming parents is a gift I will never forget. For 13 weeks I gave your warmth and <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">nurture</a>. For 13 weeks everybody that knew about you could not stop smiling or thinking about you. For 13 weeks you brought us love and joy. For 13 weeks we planned and prayed, but it all came crashing down and we had to give you back to God way sooner than we wanted to or ever imagined. The physical pain cannot compare to the emotional pain that seems like it will never go away, but we serve an AWESOME God and I know that He will continue to provide strength and healing for us all. It’s crazy how last week I was looking up day cares because I wanted to find someone I could trust you with and now you’re in a perfect place with the One I trust the most!

God planned every detail and made sure that I did not have to lose you alone. He blessed us with an amazing hospital staff and most importantly we were able to get your tiny body baptized with our family there to witness such a precious moment. From the day we found out that you existed we always said we would dedicate your life to the Lord and do everything we can to give you the gift of knowing God. Again, we didn’t want to do it this soon, but what could be better than Heaven? My heart hurts. My body hurts. Yet through God we have strength. I know you all will understand that we want to grieve for now and that may make us seem a little distant, but nothing can prepare you for this. We ask that you please remember us in your prayers.