Work vent/I'm sad/I want a baby

Rachel

I am a waitress and we have been trying for #2 for over a year, but have had 2 miscarriages in that time. So now were ttc again. It seems like every pregnant women gets seated in my section. Like seriously every single one, it's a small restaurant, I can see the other tables and I get all the pregnant ladies.

So I have this table. Pregnant woman in her 20s and her parents. Their food is almost ready and I was bring around coffee. I asked if they'd like more coffee and they completely ignore me. The older woman had her hands on her daughter's belly and shes like omggg hes kicking. Couldn't smile, couldn't say anything😕 just held up the coffee pot for a few seconds and filled them anyway after them not responding and just cooing over this baby kicking. I had to walk away and fight back tears in the back (a few slipped😪) I brought them their breakfast. I always ask "is there anything else I can get you right now?" But I had to come back after a minute when I relaxed a little bit. Cherry on the top of this sundae? My period was supposed to come Monday, Wednesday I take a pregnancy test that looked questionable. Thursday, I worked at double. 1st half thinking maybe! Go home for break, and I get my fucking period ahhxjehosjsksawesomedjskjsjaos

My biggest work pet peeve is when my tables ignore me/keep talking amongst themselves. But to ignore me because you can feel the baby kicking really got me. I should have been about as far along as she was if I didn't miscarry.