I was told that Selena Gomez and Toni Braxton don’t complain...about their lupus.. well number one we’re not on the same medication and we have different symptoms, lupus is different for each patient ... I have never had problems with my heart Toni...and my kidneys are not messed up like Selena...she was on dialysis which I be damn if I ever go on that..I rather die...no I did rituxan...and benlynsta. Number 2 Selena and Toni are rich...they can afford to buy a cure if they wanted to. I complain because I don’t want lupus, I wish it never existed..people who are not dealing with it will never know the struggle...I get mad every time I go to the kidney doctor..I am suppose to be getting better...it’s not happening..and I don’t want to go cytoxan...I am scared as hell...cytoxan destroy fertility..it’s makes a woman go into early menopause, I don’t want that. The struggle is real. I tell people all the time that you have one body..please take care of it, your health is very important.. I wish I took my own advice before I got diagnosed at 19. I wish I had a normal immune system, I did not catch colds that would stay for three months, I wish I did not have to go to a rheumatologist and a kidney doctor. I wish I could just have yearly check up like the healthy people. I am tired of getting bad news, I take my medicine everyday. I wish I could have some good news like ‘we could not find any traces of lupus in your system’ that what I want to hear...