Welp, I’m about 20.5 hours away from hospital check in to be induced and I am freaking the hell out. I have no idea what to expect and it’s terrifying me. I’m so scared. What if something goes wrong? What if he’s too big and gets stuck? What if my body doesn’t respond to the meds? I’m worried he’s going to be huge (estimated at 9-10lbs) and I won’t be able to deliver. I’m worried that my body won’t cooperate and dilate and I’ll have a miserable 2 day labor ending in c section. I’m worried about tearing, him having blood pressure problems, not being about to breastfeed. This is nuts! Does everyone go through this panic, or am I alone with this? It’s going to be a long, sleepless night.

Sorry to be whiney, I just really needed to vent.