Not there for the birth of our baby

Kayon

Ladies I need to know if I’m being selfish. My boyfriend and I are expecting our first child together but this would be his second. His first child is in the Caribbean so he often tries to see her once or twice a year. He was trying to go to see her for Christmas of this year but the ticket prices are expensive, so instead he chose New Years to go to see her. Knowing that my due date is January 10th, on one end I get it because he promised her he’ll come see her but on the other end it’s like what about our baby. My pregnancy is high risk so the baby could come before the due date, but I’m so scared. Who’s going to be there to hold my hands, or even rub my back!?! I really don’t know how to process this. I don’t want to be selfish because I love his daughter and I get what it feels like to be a little girl and waiting for your daddy to come and see you. But it’s like damn you couldn’t choose a different time 🥺🥺