I quit doing hard drugs, only socially drink instead of getting wasted and I live a normal life. It makes me want to shoot myself everyday I can't handle a simple happy life. I crave drugs but I crave the lifestyle involved with them more than anything. My boyfriend quit dealing so we can get our lives on track but we both miss it and not even the money just the thrills and the feeling of power that comes with it. Any suggestions of what to do? We've both explored different hobbies but can't find anything we like or that we enjoy, it's just like something's missing.