***sorry in advance for the long post***

So my boyfriend and I have been together for over a year and a half and i am now 8 weeks pregnant. We have never lived together cause he always says its not time yet. We each have our own places about 45 min from each other. We mostly see each other ever day if im not at his house he is at mine. Last week he went out of town to work and he called me Friday night around 10:30 wishing me a good night and told me he didn’t finish the job and was coming back home Saturday around 3 pm. Well on Saturday he just txted me in the morning saying good morning and didnt hear back from him all day. Around 8 i went to his house and waited for him his luggage was there so i was wondering where he was at. Hours passed and he didnt show up i did not sleep at all and i found his ipad and i connected my hotspot and he was logged in to his fb and messenger. I had never gone through his stuff before that but i found messages between him and other woman and a conversation between him and his sister where his sister was asking him why he didn’t go back to his wife (he is still legally married) and he was telling her he wished he could fix things but that nothing was the same. She asked him if he was with someone else he said no that last year he had seen me and he had had sex with me and i got pregnant (ended in a miscarriage at 14 weeks). It really hurt me to see all those messages where he denied me. So i put a post on his fb with a picture of us telling everyone how happy we were to announce or pregnancy and i changed his profile picture to a picture of us. He got to his house Sunday around 8 saying he lost his phone and that he had spent the night at my house waiting for me. i went off on him about a lot of stuff and asked him if he wanted to be with “his wife” and he cried saying no that he wanted to be with me. Well not even 20 min later the wife shows up to the house he goes outside and tell me to stay inside i looked out the window and saw it was her and went outside and asked what she was doing there she said “did he tell you he spent the night with me Friday night?” And i told her well did he tell you im pregnant and we both faced him and he didnt say anything at all. He then told her he didny want to be with her and that je wanted to be with me and the baby but idk if i can keep up with this im just going to keep waiting for him to go back and cheat again. He says he wants to fix things with me but I don’t know if i can trust him.