Please no mean comments. I don’t understand why I’m feeling this way and I just need to vent it out.

So I want to start of by saying this pregnancy was very much wanted on both ends and planned. I was THRILLED when I found out I was pregnant again (baby #2 btw). I’m 7 weeks today and have my first ultrasound on the 12th.

But for some reason for about a week or so I haven’t felt so happy with this pregnancy. I feel as if I can’t connect to this baby and it’s made me question why I decided to get pregnant again. (We have been trying for 8 months) during the ttc journey I was very excited to get pregnant and have a second baby and was even disappointed every month it didn’t happen for us. But something is making me feel like I can’t continue this journey happily.

My first pregnancy with my son was ROUGH. I was constantly throwing up and could barely get out of bed except for work at the time. This pregnancy is so different and way easier than my sons and yet I feel like I connected to my son better and was all around happier with him even in the first trimester.

I just can’t put my finger on why I’m feeling this way. I know I’ll love this baby when I have it but I’m just struggling really hard right now. I feel like a horrible mother and my baby doesn’t deserve this. Any advice on how to get over this is appreciated.