We live with MIL basically to help her dumbass out and I hate every minute of it. It's to the point where my blood can feel her presence and start to boil with rage! Years and many incidences have amounted to a hate in my heart and I'm trying to just change the way I react to her stupid face but it's really hard especially when you have feelings, are on hormones for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> and have hate in your heart. I feel really bad because I resent her so much and I hate having so much hate for one person. Ive lived with probably hundreds fo people and generally got along with everyone in my life so this HATE feeling against a person is new to me. Ive disliked people but her i know I hate. These feelings got worse after she made unnecessary comments on our fertility and my miscarriage like how she got pregnant on birth control after she had an abortion and that I had a miscarriage because I didnt deserve it. She is careful of what she says in front of my husband so when I tell him he just things I'm misunderstanding her.

After her 2nd divorce she was getting decent alimony because she pretty much stopped working in her 30's and now that she is 65 yrs old cant get a job because of her "illnesses". She has no friends So she basically lays on her ass, watches tv all day and buys crap she doesnt need/cant afford like Victoria's secret, Shisheido and thousands of dollars on prestige vanity shit. Fast forward her mother dies (she was 101 yrs old and MIL was basically using her for IHSS money, food stamps, social security and her pension). At the same time her ex was out of work so the alimony stopped. A little bit before this her ex stopped paying for the house so they basically had to sell it and she literally was there until they had to kick her out.

We find out she is broke and end up paying for her bankruptcy and some of her bills until her ex starts to pay her buy her $800 tires for her stupid cadillac (who buys a cadillac after a divorce when you dont work-she was assuming her ex was going to keep paying) and pay all her 3 cats vets bills and medications. We have literally gave this woman thousands of dollars to take care of her needs. When we first moved in I used to cook for her and clean up her shit but that stopped after she would always complain about everything. "Its 10am in the morning can you stop making noise"- uh no bitch first of all its 10am must be f-ing nice to wake up at noon so you wan watch TV and I work graveyard so if you want me to clean it's getting done now. She doesnt do shit all damn day! " ugh I cant stand marina sauce ( while she wretches and makes throwing up noises while I'm cooking)" and gets flips out and calls me selfish for not offering her spaghetti.

This is the woman that has to use a walker and pretends to get pathetic grabbing onto my husband for dear life cause she cant walk but I've caught her walking around outside without her walker or cane before. One time I came home at 2am because I left work early and as I walk in I see the light in the kitchen go off. I was like that's weird. I walk in the kitchen and she's fucking standing there in the dark. I was like what are you doing? She said she got scared because she thought I was a robber.lol a robber that uses a key to get in right. I'm like wheres your walker bitch. She said she forgot it and start for real wobbling back to her room because I guess I reminded her she was handicapped. Those are a few examples of the many things that get on my goddamn nerves and there have been worse things that happened.

Long story short she is basically playing my husband and I've talked to him about it but he feels so sorry for her we are stuck with her for f-ing ever. I suggested that she goes and lives with her daughter since her daughter is also divorced and doesnt work. they can stay home and do nothing all day together. He basically got mad at me and said they dont get along and that his sister doesnt want to move in with her.

I'm like well why do I have to suffer then we are trying to have a baby and at 37yrs old my time is running out. His response is I go see a therapist. I love this man so much and it tears me apart because her existence is seriously making me bipolar. There are times when I seriously want to throw my wedding ring and tell him he can fucking give that to his damn mother and. Bye.

But I mostly want to deal with it because I love my husband and other than being somewhat a mommas boy he is a wonderful husband and I'm praying everyday stupid bitch will find a man and leave us alone. I also do feel sorry for his mom. Until then any advice on how to deal with this?