No wedding in my future

Court

So my bf and I if 3 yrs we’re taking and he said he doesn’t wanna get married he wanna spend the rest of his life wit me and have a family and get me a ring but he doesn’t wanna go through the process of getting married he said it’s too much work and to worry about divorce is too much work. I for one want to get married I don’t wanna have any kids out of wedlock and I feel like if I’m not married I shouldn’t be bringing any children in this world. My question is should I stay or should I go. He said he does feel like he’s holding me back because we don’t want the same thing but he doesn’t wanna let me go. I already prepared my mental for a breakup but I think I’m afraid to let go too. I also don’t wanna feel like I’m giving up wat I want for him. It’s not just me he doesn’t wanna marry but he said any woman he’s not getting married ever and I will no longer bring it up. I’m just hurt rn .... 😢