We have an 11month old, when we planned for her I told him i want a second baby not too long after, we agreed we wanted kids close in age.

Now that she's almost a year, I logically know we should still wait a bit, but it's been painful seeing AF every month. I'm starting to feel like I did before we tried for our first baby. My cycles are 38 days now, when they were the textbook 28 day before pregnancy. (Still nursing tho so maybe that's why..) so each cycle seems to DRAG DRAG DRAG. I hate it. Its depressing.

Either way, I'm still pained to not be pregnant every month, even tho we aren't even trying 😅. A girl can hope tho... as we use P/Oz method I hold onto a very small hope each month. (Yes I'm aware that isn't contraception, mind your own, we've done pull put 5 years before we started trying, got pregnant right away..)

I am just enjoying my baby I have right now, I just want to give her a sibling! I grew up with an older.brother 3.5 years older and wished we were closer in age.

The heartache is real, its going to be a long LONG few (or more) months 😭