It’s a day away from my grandma wake and on Saturday it’s the funeral ion don’t think I can do this I’ll be 20w tomorrow when I seen my grandma laying in that bed it hurt my soul I was stressing and straining my baby hyperventilating and all when I finally calmed down my stomach was in so much pain I couldn’t bare it I want to go but at the same time ion think i should because the out come of what happened last time I know my grandma wouldn’t want me to go through that pain ion know what should I do? I’m so lost without her👵🏾🥺😭