Heart broken & confused

I guess I wanted to start this off by saying I’m not mad at my hubby.

Two nights ago on my ovulation night we were in the middle of having sex and I asked him what was wrong. He said maybe he doesn’t want to have a kid yet without going back to school first. We’ve been TTC for a year this month. It completely shocked me, I wanted to cry but also didn’t want to say anything either. I didn’t know what to say. I want to be so supportive of him but he completely dropped this bomb shell on me. I just climbed off of him and put my clothes back on.

We had a miscarriage last month. It was devastating and I wanted to have my rainbow more than ever now. And he dropped this on my ovulation day. We bd the day prior so there’s a chance i could get pregnant & I just feel so sad.