I need some reassurance ladies

Me and my boyfriend are the perfect couple. We communicate well and talk out our disagreements. We had been sexting, suggestive pics and texts. But nothing, you know, big. He knows I want to wait till marriage for sex. I have mentioned it a lot. He has no opinions on when we do or don’t.

Though tonight something changed. He started asking if we could before marriage, right after we got engaged. I was open with my feelings about it, which is very hard for me. I suppress my feelings all the time, He’s the first person I have ever opened up to at all. He knows that my feelings are sensitive.

I told him that made me feel like he just wanted my body when he asked for that, and I felt like he was gonna leave if I gave him what he wanted.

And he told me that I should know that he loves me, from how much he’s talked about his future with me.

I know he loves and cares for me. It’s obvious in the way he talks to me daily.

Maybe I overreacted, but I feel like crap and need some reassurance.

I just feel like he doesn’t respect my decision and I said that.