I am the PROUD mommy to a 2.5 year old boy. My husband and I agreed that we were two babies and done. Mostly his idea but i won't push the idea of more kids because I want to only have kids that are fully wanted.

I had this relentless feeling that this baby is a boy but with so much hope for a little girl. Being a little deceitful, not telling ANYONE, i went to a clinic that does sneak peek and had a nurse draw my blood and send it in. 24 hours later i got my news. I am overjoyed that i get another chance to raise an amazing little boy but low key sad that i don't get to raise a daughter. I don't get to knit that butterfly blanket that i wanted to. I don't get to teach her about periods. I don't get to cry with her about her first heartbreak. I don't get to fight with her because she's just like me. I don't get to help her pick out her wedding dress...

Im glad that i found out this early so that at my 20 week appointment, a stranger doing the ultrasound doesn't get to judge me as a look of sadness passes on my face. I get to show pure joy, because i truely will be excited to see my son that day. I get to let this process before i tell my husband the sneaky thing i did. But if anyone has some cute ideas on how to tell my husband he has another son on the way, throw them at me.

Just had to get my little bit of honest guilt off my chest. Thanks for listening, mamas.