I really don't wanna be pregnant. I don't wanna gain weight. I'm still holding on to baby weight from my first and she's almost 3. I'm not excited at all. I'm in the middle of a separation from my husband and this is just not the best time to be pregnant. I feel like I've been pregnant 4 ever and I'm only 10 weeks. I had awful postpartum depression and anxiety with my first and I'm scared of that coming back. This is a nightmare. I cannot do this. I really just want an abortion, but I can't deal with the judgement from my husband or mom.