Okay so I’ve never done anything like this before but I thought I’d give it a try bc I’m SO DESPERATE.. so my bf and I have been dating for about a year now and we just recently broke up..I’m in college and he’s not, we do long distance it sucks but we made it work for the most part always visiting one another and I have so many vacations, but this summer we just have been arguing so much the relationship turned so toxic, we would fight and break up almost weekly it was awful I spent my entire summer crying, we finally put a serious end to it which I thought was what I wanted he did too, its been about two weeks now and I still can’t stop crying, I cry at work and I cry myself to sleep every night..Idk if I made the right choice I think I love him to much to let him go..I know our relationship turned awful and all my friends hate him at this point and same with his to me..in my perspective he became controlling and honestly abusive he didn’t care when I told him I’d had spent days crying my self to sleep he would think I deserved it for bitching him out about not spending time with me..what hurt me the most was his lack of effort to fix anything he always told me he cared and he would show me in other ways but all I wanted was something simple just like a date night or a small I’m sorry gift like frekin icecream or a candy bar was all it would take but he never thought to do soemthing like that..idk I’m a sweetheart of a girl and ik was treated wrong and badly by him but now that it’s over I feel worse than ever I’m honestly depressed and can’t be normal I’m not the same around my friends or anything I just cry all the time and just think about him non stop I’m glued to my phone just waiting for him to reach out..I just don’t know what to do anymore PLEASE HELP ME OMG IM GOING CRAZY