Today it is finally over. I realized I was worth more than how he made me feel. To him I was nothing. Idc how many times he said he loved me. Idc about the words he spoke but never acted upon. I let him cheat on me. I forgave him so many times. He was toxic to me. He let other people hurt me as he did himself. He took his insecurity over his sexuality onto me even though I tried to help him accept himself. He convinced himself he wasn't a man bc he's bi and only had luck sexually with men (looks up to his older brother that hooks up with every girl possible) and bc he was never good at sex with me (which I didnt care about bc I "loved" him) . All he wanted was to mask his self hatred and be more like his brother and took that out on me. So many times hes chosen sex over me. But I'm worth more than that. You're all worth more than that. If you're in a toxic relationship rn please know you're worth more than what you go through. I put up with so much and I finally see that he just isnt for me anymore..I'm free now. You can judge if you want ,but I am just happy to finally be strong enough to frickin leave. Thanks for reading I feel like a weight has been lifted..