I was told my child probably wouldn’t make it 24 hours after birth. I’m feeling devastated, In denial, sad, angry.

I had a terrible feeling at my 34 week ultrasound that wouldn’t go away I kept looking at the tech with hopeful thinking, and all was great until she turned the screen, panicked I said what’s wrong?! “I am seeing something that I can’t confirm with you so I’ll go get the doctor to take a look” oh no I thought as the feeling kept getting stronger.

“We see a severe heart defect we want you to get a fetal echo” my heart sank.

I knew it I said to my husband, I knew something was wrong. I can’t even remember what they called it I was in so much shock, fast forward to Friday afternoon we got a call to come into my doctor as they want to speak with me.

They say “your child most likely won’t live past the 24 hour mark” in shock I sit there. “We can induce labor, if that’s what you want?”

No I say.

I’ll wait for him to come on his own I say.

My bad feeling has went away and only sad feelings are in its place. I want to run away.