How do i love myself all the time?

Nicole • 27 ❤️ Milwaukee born and raised 🐄🧀🍻

I have really been struggling to love myself for a long time now. I used to be in great shape. But every year for the past 5 years I have put on 10 pounds a year. I’ve never lost any or if I did I put it right back on. My confidence is basically shot. Also I went to get my hair cut in March and she cut 7 inches of my hair off when I asked for 3. I’ve been shopping for clothes because I’m going on vacation next week and everything looks terrible and I’m pretty sure my boyfriend is going to propose and all I can think about is how fat I’m going to look in the pictures. It’s all I can think about. But today I had a little bit of comfort. I got a new pair of jeans that fit perfectly and I put a little make up on and for the first time in a long time I liked the way I looked. Partly because the jeans cinched everything in lol. I’ve been so busy and depressed I always put my hair in a half pony and I never wear make up(even though have a huge collection). I just have had such a hard time getting in a gym routine and I have a binge eating problem and I’m TIRED. I hate feeling like garbage all the time. Anything you ladies can offer me I’d appreciate it. Even if it’s just telling me to get off my ass. I’m

The new jeans and make up doing their job lol

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Gl

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I've been loosing weight and that doesn't even help my husband has to tell me and I have to take a million pictures and have a million reasons why I'm still fat but I see results in the pictures and then I do see it even if the world is telling your loosing weight or you look good you yourself have to see it before anyone else

Gl

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This is when my husband proposed to me and I feel like I look huge !!!! But I was happy he asked me to be his wife and he makes me feel like there is no one else he is attracted to than me

Gl

Gloria • Aug 13, 2019
I know what you mean girl don't give up on your self if you can dream it you can achieve anything !!!

Ni

Nicole • Aug 13, 2019
I love this!! I see this and I just see how happy you are. But of course if I have a picture like this in my near future and replace you with me I’ll probably see happy but also fat and I hate that because no one else will see that.

Gl

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You look beautiful. I have body dismorphia and it's hard to deal with that. How I've been getting by is seeing my husband accept me for me and not for how skinny or fat I look. Some days I see my body and feel like a big blob and others I feel like I look skinnier than yesterday it's a constant battle but I'm working on it day by day just look at your self and tell your self you love yourself because if you don't then you can't love others I learned that the hard way

Gl

Gloria • Aug 13, 2019
I got on a diet because I was thinking my husband wasn't attracted to me because when he got home I wanted to have sex with him and he was tiered and would get into my feeling so I started my diet and we talked and any ways problem resolved you know but I'm trying to get healthy

Gl

Gloria • Aug 13, 2019
Nooo your not disgusting your beautiful trust me right now you feel that way but it won't be like that all the time

Ni

Nicole • Aug 13, 2019
If I had the time and the money I’d look into therapy for my body image and food issues. It’s getting in the way of my mental wellbeing. So many great things can be happening but I still look at myself and think about how disgusting I am. It’s toxic.

Gl

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You got this girl and if he proposes and you think you look fat than don't worry think about how happy you were when he proposed or how he makes you feel