This is the last photo I'll be taking with the little dude on the inside. Tomorrow I'm booked for a c-section because he's determined to stay in the breech position.

I'm absolutely terrified - of the surgery, of him being born, of him not being healthy, of me not surviving surgery, of me being a mom, of everything changing..

I cried almost all day, full on panic attacks. Zero excitement - all anxiety and fear.

I just wish I could jump ahead and know that everything is going to be alright..