Ugh venting i feel alone i hate it

Stressed i only want to see and be with with my 22 year old boyfriend i am 20 we’re having a baby im 9 weeks and idk he always chooses his family over me i cant get mad bc i understand 😭♥️🙄idk yesterday i was holding stuff in and i let it out yesterday night when he was asking me all day whats wrong and i wasn’t able to. I finally had the nerve to say it at night 😫😳🥺i was supposed to see him today bit NOOO. His brother is sleeping over this week 😳 its okay bc he even admitted thats his first kid bc hes sick n life isn’t fair