My hubby and I both want baby number two desperately. We love being parents and we love our almost two year old so much. I am absolutely terrified though. We decided to have our son, everything was great and when I was right months pregnant everything went to shit. My husband's job cut his salary, we lost our place, hubby was super depressed, we moved in with my mil, bringing my baby home to her house was absolutely terrible and traumatic. I got super depressed, then my boy was diagnosed with a super rare and scary type of allergy and we went crazy into debt trying to keep up with medical bills. This year, everything is way better. Hubby got a new job and antidepressants, I got counseling, starting bonus at new job took care of all the medical debt (though we still have credit card debt) and my baby's medical condition is still difficult but currently stable. We still share a place but the roommate completely keeps to herself. Everything seems so much better but I'm terrified because it was all great when we got pregnant with my first. We are going to start TTC but nothing about my son's first year was like I expected and most of it was terrible. Hoping and praying this time will be different