Maybe if I lose more weight I will be perfect. My if I skip a meal or 2 or 3 or just a whole 3 days or maybe 4. Maybe if I put on more makeup or do my hair, I will be noticeable. Maybe if I keep my mouth shut and not speak my my mind I'll be like able. Maybe if I become someone I'm not, I'll be approved of. Maybe then my husband will spent more time with me maybe then he wil once again touch me like he used to maybe then I'll be perfect.... So I will skip a meal and wear makeup I will shut up and look away I will become perfect.