Hey guys, just thought i would come on here as you have supported me through ttc and all. I just lost my baby at 5 weeks. I know some go on to be further along and lose it as well but it still hurts. We knew I was pregnant for a little over a week and we were supposed to go on vacation Thursday with my husbands family. Instead of going home to pack Wednesday night, I had to leave work that morning because I felt a warm gush like I had gotten my period. I calmly walked to the bathroom, trying to convince myself it must have been a lot of discharge. As I sat down, I just started crying. It was blood, red. Not caring who was around I got up and ran to find my boss. I had just told her I was pregnant the day before. I do a lot of lifting, so I wanted to tell her right away. All I had to say was I am bleeding. She ran me to her office and started making calls for me. I couldn’t ask for a better person to be there during this. She told me to do what I need to and go to the emergency room now. She’s suffered a miscarriage before so she knows. I never broke so many traffic violations. I parked in private parking because I was too distraught to find the right entrance. A nurse saw me crying and ran me through to the er through the private entrance for employees only. Mind you I had a bfp this same morning .... they ran tests, blood work, vaginal ultrasound and later told me my hcg was at 6. Before they could even tell me anything specific, I got dressed and waited for them to let me leave. I knew I was losing my baby and I just wanted to be home. This was our first baby, our first time trying. It happened so fast. I’m sick of hearing we can try again. I know that. We thought we were lucky. I felt I had won my own personal lottery. Now it’s gone. My pregnancy symptoms that were once there are slowly fading. I passed tissue yesterday that was probably what was of my baby at the time. ... I also went back to the er to get the same tests done yesterday. They said in 24hrs my levels dropped to 3. I was miscarrying successfully they said. Today was supposed to be spent on a beach with good friend and family, with the best news I could have given them. instead, I had to call them with bad news as to why we can’t make it, and I have to sit here and bleed out what was my baby. I hope my cycle goes back to normal as it once was perfect for ttc. Now I’m just scared to be pregnant again. It wasn’t even the case where I was testing too early. I was a week late on my period it would have been obvious to me regardless.... I thought I was ok. I prayed to my baby everyday. It was apart of me. I hope one day soon I will have a better story or an update for you all. I know there’s light at the end of this tunnel, but its very hard to see right now. 💕💕