Due in 2 days


So, I’m due in 2 days and it’s currently 4am I have been awake since 130 and so over it. I want the baby to come when he/she is ready but i honestly think I’m going into a depression waiting. I feel like I can’t go anywhere or do anything, I live in a really small town and there’s nothing much to do unless you go out of town and the closest place is over an hour away. I feel like if I go then that’s when I’ll go into labor.

My boyfriend is always busy working and stuff so I feel like I’m always at home alone and the walls are closing in. I tried asking my dr at the beginning of the week to induce me come my due date because all the pain I’ve been in and being uncomfortable but he brushed it off as if he didn’t care. He was suppose to check if I’m dilating also and decided during my apt he wasn’t going to.. Sometimes I just sit here and cry and I don’t know how to get out of this slump besides having the baby here. Am I the only one that feels this way?