I hate myself, I hate my body, and I hate ttc. Yesterday I was symptoms spotting like an insane person, but today I know it was all in my head, because I got my pre-period LH surge. I always get an LH surge a week before my period is due, and it came like clockwork this month. My cm is completely dried up, and my cervix is in full on period mode: firm, low, and closed. I have no more vials, and my donor is no longer donating. Even if he was, I can't afford to just drop 200 or 300 every month on the off chance that MAYBE this time it'll work. So I guess this is it for me. Infertility treatment is so expensive, and not covered unless you meet like a dozen criteria, so unless I come into a shitton of money in the future. That's out. Same with adoption, it's so so expensive. So good luck to everyone else, I'm bitterly jealous of you but I hope you have better luck then me.