9DPO the wait it bad 😑

Melissa • I`m 36 years old, mommy to Luca (6/23/20) 💍 TTC baby #2

I’m 9DPO today expected implementation day 😬I did test yesterday not with FMP received a BFN. Did not test today because of the let down Today I’ve had cramps about 30 minutes ago I went pee and saw a string of brown. Could this be implantation bleeding? Am I out? AF due in 5 days 😬😬😬😬😬😓 I feel hopeless 😩 someone give me a baby to hold and hug