If your about to become negative please dont comment on my post. Good vibes only ladies.

So, me and my boyfriend of two years have been having problems recently. For the last couple months our sex life just has not been the same, its so hard for me because we used to have sex atleast 14 times in atleast two days. We loved it, i fucking loved it the most and now we go weeks without it. The worse thing is, he lays next to me naked and i picture sucking his dick and i get so horny and upset knowing its not going to happen..

WELLL...

Yesterday he came home from work and usually he goes straight to the gym but we was laying in bed relaxing before he had to get up and he started kissing me and rubbing his hands between my legs and he was kissing my neck and he started taking his clothes off and i got goosebumps knowing this was it. Its been two months since i sucked his dick so i wanted to do it real good for him to remember and know what hes missing.. i deep throated it sooo much i couldnt stop gagging, i was becoming so fucking wet and he knew that too. He kept running his fingers up and down my neck whilst i was licking the tip listening to him moaning. I was ready, soooo fucking ready. He threw me back, took my legs and pulled me down towards him (i love it when he throws me about) he got ontop of me and slowly pushed it in whilst kissing me and i swear i died 🙃 he whispered gently “sorry baby but i cant go slow, i need it fast” and he was pounding me and i swear i havent cum that hard in soooo fucking long 😬 it was so fucking perfect.

To those that i know will ask my boyfriend does not get horny. Its also hard for him to get a boner. my boyfriend works 6 days a week, goes gym 7 days a week and also does muay thai two days a week so hes always active. He also smokes weed so i have just told myself these underlying problems are to do with him either being tired or him smoking to much weed. I have asked him to go doctors but he HATES the doctors and sometimes wont even go for his own health concerns. Its hard because people keep telling me hes most likely cheating on me, one of my guy friends said thats how he was acting when he was sleeping behind his girlfriends back, that he wouldnt want to fuck her he just wanted to kiss and cuddle. Its difficult because hes the love of my life. Hes MY person. I became someone so much better because of him so its just so difficult to just ‘walk away’ as ive been told because ive put up with this since january 2019. Obviously if i dont see changes then i dont know what to do tbh but for now i just want to be patient and hope for the best.

UPDATED —-

So for those asking, no he isnt depressed. Hes a happy guy, he comes home we cook, clean & take a shower together. Were always making jokes, giggling, laughing, telling eachother how madly in love we are with eachother and go to bed and fall asleep cuddling. He doesnt seem unhappy in the slightest. If its cheating then hes fucking good at hiding it, he lets me go on his phone whenever i want but people who hide things tend to get paranoid. He doesnt seem paranoid but sometimes when he tells me a story about when he went out its literally SOMETIMES that story doesnt add up + im left asking questions and hes there like what? And starts getting an attitude with me constantly asking about his broken story that doesnt really make any sense. I say weed because it varies with different people. Weed is known to make people horny but it also makes you really tired and when i smoke weed and im tired i wont do a single fucking thing and that does include sex. I dont know girls. Im torn. I have seen a few things in regards To him being unfaithful but there not MAJOR. I went on his recently used emojies two months ago and he had the aubergine 🍆 the water 💦 the love struck faces 😍 the tongue 👅 the devil 😈 and the eyes 👀... so i dont know wtf hes using that for but i know he has never tasted an aubergine in his life so... i dont know what to say anymore tbh.

But thankyou ladies for commenting 🖤