I just feel tired, physically and mentally.

I feel ugly and I'm tired of walking around looking like a scarecrow with this wig because my hair has fallen out after having my daughter.

I wish someone told me the real truth about having a baby and balancing a relationship. I feel like I've been lied to, I think about my old life often.

I wish instead of being constantly told breast is best someone would have enlightened me about how hard it would be to wean my daughter off. I feel like a cow, she doesn't want to eat food.or drink expressed milk or formula. Every night I'm up as often as I have been from the beginning. She won't sleep alone and I never get time to myself

I am not even exaggerating, my daughter rarely stays interested in anything. Recently she's hated her stroller so going out has been stressful. Once she realises she's in her cot she cries bloody murder, on a rare occasion she'll stand up and amuse herself.

I feel really bad about saying all of this because my daughter isn't well and I've been by her side everyday. I've woken up to comfort her the 1-3 hours she does sleep. I've sat with her giving her cuddles for hours on end and I will continue to do so. It's just hard to hear other people being able to do simple things like doing my hair or maybe applying make so I can look alive for once. When you ask your partner to get your daughter dressed so you can get ready and he doesn't think it will make a difference. Oh and he sterilised her stuff for the second time in almost a year. I swear everyone thinks I'm exaggerating when I say I don't get to do anything for myself.

Yesterday I got ready for work and I forgot to mention it to my partner and he starts sulking cos he has things to do. Why did he sleep for about 9 hours? He woke up, ate dinner and back to sleep for another 5 hours whilst I tried to juggle taking care of our daughter and cooking that same burnt dinner he ate. Then when I got my daughter to sleep instead of me sleeping I went downstairs and tidied the kitchen.

I am tireddd