HOPE💕

I just wanted to post to help give you all some hope. Especially if you have experienced a miscarriage. Those can be over looked as if it’s not a loss. But us as mothers,( yes we are mothers even though we may not have any children here with us but have miscarried) know we are very much so mothers. I recently miscarried June 22nd. I bled until June 29th. I was miserable I cried and cried. I thought “Is this my fault?” “Did I cause this?” I went through sad phase, mad phase and even denial. But things happen. Miscarriage doesn’t mean it’s your fault. So many things have to line up in order to create that beautiful baby you’ll be carrying. One small thing could be off and boom.. there you go. I thought At one point that i wouldn’t even want to try again after that. All of these feelings where during that week of bleeding. The feeling I got every single time I went to the bathroom I had to see the blood from what was left of our precious baby. That haunted me. I couldn’t sleep and I could barely eat.

When I stopped bleeding me and my husband decided to make love since ya know, I wasn’t bleeding any longer. Plus we were both hurt and it was as if we were kinda “licking each other’s wounds” per say. Anyways, July 24th comes around and I still had some pregnancy tests left over. I thought maybe just take one. Even though I KNEW I wasn’t pregnant. I leave it on the counter for a while as I took a quick shower. When I got out I didn’t hardly think to even check it, I just started getting dressed and happened to glance at the test. There it was. Two lines. I couldn’t even believe it. So I went in to the doctor and had believed i was only like 2-3 weeks pregnant. They do bloodwork to see where my levels are. They came back 6,000. Meaning I was further along than just 2-3 weeks. They took me in todo an ultrasound and get this.... I measured 5 weeks and 5 days. I conceived THE DAY AFTER I stopped bleeding from my miscarriage. The actual day after. I couldn’t believe it.

So for those of you ttc or has miscarried, PLEASE DON’T LOSE FAITH. Your baby is coming to you. Whether if it’s today, tomorrow, next month, next year, or even adoption. You will get your beautiful rainbow baby. Thank you for reading. I hope this helped keep your heads high!💕